I Tried Ayahuasca + The Toad and My Life Changed Completely

I Tried Ayahuasca + The Toad and My Life Changed Completely

Ayahuasca showed me very clearly that I don’t know what ANYTHING “IS”. To drop ego completely and understand conditioning. I realised I might be able to point out things and describe certain attributes of it, but I don’t know what anything “IS”.

This is a humbling realization, but it’s a fact.

By far the most incredible and profound experiences I’ve had were out of mind experiences. The truth is that you are not the mind, nor are you in charge of the thinking process. Thoughts just appear to you from out of nowhere, from out of the void. You don’t think your thoughts, you just perceive them.

I understand why most people believe they are their minds. The reason it’s so difficult to see the mind as separate is because it’s with you 24/7, it presents everything to you from a 1st person perspective, it calls itself “I” or “me”, it seems to speak in your voice (it doesn’t really), and it talks to you all day long even when you’re sleeping. It’s also invisible and intangible (it’s not like you can identify it or point it out).

No matter how good my logic and reasoning, I’ve discovered you can’t change people, they change themselves. There is no reason to get frustrated over it but solely accept this reality.

Ayahuasca has been a very powerful guide for me, and I know that she is still with me. For the first time in my entire life I can say that I am genuinely happy. Not because of my material possessions which are detached from my feelings of happiness. I have mental focus and concentration that I never had prior. I have empathy towards all living beings. We are conditioned to be afraid of these experiences, to fear the unknown, to believe either that we are simply God’s creations or that no divine power exists, but ultimately you will not find truth unless you find the courage to enter into the unknown.

Ayahuasca is a voice for the Earth to communicate with humans. She is here to teach and help us evolve as a species. She knows why each of us are here on Earth and can provide you with everything that you need to fulfil your purpose in life. Why do I call Ayahuasca a she? Because she is the embodiment of mother Earth. She is here to teach us that the true nature of being is to love and in the end that is all that matters.

Everything else is just noise.


This is a chemical found within the venom of Bufo alvarius, commonly called the Sonoran Desert toad or Colorado River toad. The venom of Bufo alvarius will simply catapult you into a heightened level of consciousness like you’re going to outer space at the speed of light. I look at life differently, I look at people differently. It’s like dying and being reborn. Find out more about my experience in my latest podcast episode Life Talk with Jesse Meester.

LINK: https://open.spotify.com/episode/6tzRvfDXw7sDfaqU5fquhx

NOTE: This is not (medical) advice. Every experience is different and you should do your own research. This is solely me sharing my experience being around the right guidance and Shaman.

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